2 in 1

Pt I: Memories
I was on the 117 today minding my own until I saw you. And when I saw him I couldn't help but be happy because I thought you were gone forever. But God and his goodness, gave me one more chance to say goodbye because he knows how much I miss him and how much I need him to know that I love him and care about him. I know that you loved us and thought of us as your own because that's what you told others. I just really miss you. It's hard not knowing that you're not here. I haven't heard anything back from you but please God just this one favour.

Pt II: It is what it is, but it ended as a soap opera.

I’m sorry I couldn’t stop crying, but I care too much about you.

And it’s just so hard now because I know what we had was real, and just as I had imagined them to be: the feelings were genuine and mutual and romantic and just everything good.

I’m almost certain that what happened was one of the most adult things I’ve done since I have been here. It was the hardest, and like God tells his children, he does things that we may not understand. Regardless of if I understand or not, I will try not to be selfish and think of myself. I’m going to try my best to see the best out of this sad situation. And I will grow, and so will you, and we will learn new things—although not together.

It's so crazy how things change in the matter of a few days.