Be better

"For when there is a question as to whether a man is good, one does not ask what he believes, or what he hopes, but what he loves.” He pushes us at a crucial point: true discipleship is not a matter of having the right ideas in my head, but of having a heart that loves God and loves what God loves."
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"The college years are critical years as so much of who you will be, what you will believe, and how you will live for the rest of life, is being shaped. For you who are serious about God and the worldview that grows out of the word of God, listen and learn to the saints who have gone before you. And above all, make sure that your every experience as a student — every class you take, every book you read, every friend you make — serves to deepen your love for what God loves. That is what the college years are really all about."

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I am almost certain that I know I have to change things. I have to surround myself with better people and fix things inside to be a better person. I refuse to be complacent with my life because I'm not lazy and I because I want better.